What’s a blog for, if not for putting into writing some of the colliding ideas in my head? The very act of writing helps me to figure things out sometimes, which I’ve said on numerous occasions, both here and in other places. I’ve been asking plenty of new questions of myself lately, and if you give yourself enough time, the subconscious mind has a way of chewing through the entanglements to get to the crux of the issues.
The first thing I want to acknowledge is that I know my readership is small and dedicated. I actually prefer it that way. I’m not looking to appeal to a larger audience. This whole site is more about sharing my interests with like-minded friends. So for those of you who read this, thank you for reading, for your feedback, for being a part of this ride wherever it goes, and in general for simply bearing with me.
I think that I’ve proven a couple of points about myself just in the short time I’ve had this blog. The first and most obvious one is that I have way too many points of focus, which of course detract from all of the other points of focus. You could call it a form of ADD or ADHD. For me, it’s more of a case of AD&D, but the symptoms are the same to those on the outside looking in, only there are dice involved.
The second is that I really can dig in and dedicate when something holds my interests. I’ve said in the past that my trifecta of personal demons are boredom, depression, and anger. There’s nothing quite like spurring along the creative process and/or digging through a complex rabbit hole of possibility to overcome these demons. Some of my projects here have stagnated (or have seemed to), and some just haven’t gotten off the ground at all. Others have been going fairly steady. The two that really bug me are my projects on Shakespeare and Star Wars. And to a lesser degree, Star Trek as well.
My examination of the Bard looks like it’s stagnated as it’s been months since I last posted anything there. It’s more a case of behind the scenes I’ve been trying to learn more about the Bard himself and his world. As much of a history buff as I am, I’m ashamed to admit that most of my understanding kind of stops at the end of the Tudor era in 1603. Anything that goes forward from there tends to deal with art or music. This is a case of filling in some gaps. Regardless, I have begun work on the next play in line, Henry IV, Part 2. I started that last weekend. Not sure when my examination of this will be complete, but it is coming. If you’re one who’s been waiting for this (and I know there are a couple of you who are so interested — thank you for that), then rest assured it actually is in the pipeline as I type this.
On the Star Wars front… the thing is, I’ve got so much to say about this, but I don’t know where to begin, and I have trouble saying anything that hasn’t already been covered extensively by dedicated fans, sites, and podcasts across the world. The one and only thing I have to offer that nobody else can is my own personal perspective. Honestly, that’s the one thing I should be putting out here. I need to do more of that. I set a kind of a bar for myself with Project: Monster and the 007 project, delving into some of the history behind why things happened. With Star Wars, and also with Star Trek, I feel like that’s been done to death. It’s the age of the internet, after all. I keep looking back at the two posts I did for Star Trek, and that’s more along the lines of what I want to do more of. Fine and well, if my mind will work with me and put some things together. In the meantime for both Trek and Wars, I think what I’ll do is start systematically going through the movies and TV series and offer my own commentaries. I’ve got to start somewhere. I’m hoping that in doing so, better blog topics will come to mind. So the idea here is that these projects will be less history-minded than some of my others. I may pull back on that all around, but as I know less about the history of some of my other projects, that’s why I dig around and learn, so as to gain more perspective.
All around, I think what I need to do is pushing a better rotation for all of the projects. With the exception of the Tolkien project (which reaches the milestone conclusion of The Two Towers this weekend), nothing is on a regular schedule. Try as might, that’s been impossible because there are too many projects, not enough hours in the day, and other sundry excuses. It doesn’t mean I can’t get better about this. Bottom line, I need to write more.
Related to that, I’ve blogged about a couple of potential new writing projects in recent days / weeks / months that need to be addressed.
The Arthuriana project that I mused about a while back… probably not going to happen. As much as I would love to dive into that full force and as much as it intersects with all of the other things I already love, it’s as big or bigger than my Tolkien or Shakespeare projects. Right now, it’s too daunting a mountain to tackle. I may come back to this someday, but right now, not so much.
The other thing I discussed is the matter of writing and possibly publishing a book. I’ve been revisiting some books on writing, and I’ve been working through plenty of information on publishing, self-publishing, and marketing. Here’s the thing… I am not a businessman. I do not pretend to grasp the concepts of business beyond a theoretical level. If I were any good at application, I’d already be rich. My day to day existence proves I’m craptastic in this arena. Part of that is that I am not interested in marketing. The largest platforms of social media both terrify and repulse me. I’ve already been accused of having a fear of success. Maybe that’s true on some level. But what’s also true is that I am genuinely disgusted by Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, and pretty much the majority of social media platforms that bring out the worst in me and my fellow human beings. I’ve dipped my toes into that water before. If the price of success is to bathe in those waters, you can keep it. Poverty and hard work doesn’t seem so bad by comparison, as much as my day job consistently tells me otherwise.
But… that doesn’t mean the idea of a book is off the table. I’ve been thinking long and hard about this. I have this backlog of stories and characters that, quite frankly, I don’t want the general public to have. I just don’t. They’re for me. I love storytelling, but I’m more enamored with the idea of having written a story than in actually writing a story. If I were doing this sort of thing for the money, social media notwithstanding, those stories would suffer, and I’d hate myself. No… fiction storytelling is not in my wheelhouse, at least not at this stage in the game. I am, however, considering the idea of writing non-fiction. Anything I’d write on this front is for a thoroughly niche audience, which is perfectly fine by me. I’ve never been one to play to market trends anyway. In fact, what I’m considering is something so incredibly niche that, even within that niche, there’s a specific niche that needs to be filled. And I understand why it hasn’t been. It’s… tricky. It just so happens that it plays to one of my particular (and peculiar) strengths that I haven’t covered much at all, anywhere. It’s something for which I can build a framework and assemble in pieces slowly, right here on this website. I just have to figure out how to go about it. That’s what I’m chewing on right now. If I’m right about this, this will be something that, once it’s completed, I can offer as an ebook right here on this site or through various other ebook or print on demand platforms so as to get my feet wet on this publishing idea without the complete overwhelm of social media. If I’m right about this particular niche, the target audience will find me anyway because it’s already actively looking. I know because I’m in that target audience. I’ve been in that weird little demographic for most of my life. I also know that most of my current readership here is not in that demographic, though maybe once it’s revealed I’ll be surprised to learn that one or two of you might actually be interested. After all, some of your reading habits are as diverse as my own or even more so. Regardless, for now I’ll just keep a lid on it until I actually have something tangible to unveil.
It would appear this entry has gone on too long, but that’s pretty typical. I’m told these “walls of text” posts are anathema to the entire concept of the internet, but when have I ever listened to popular convention? If you made it this far, thanks again. Until next time…