Feedback, Please

I’ve been thinking.  I know… it’s a dangerous pastime, but I can’t help myself sometimes.  Let me try to explain what’s going on between my ears, and I’ll let you tell me if it’s worth it for you since you’d be the ones reading this mess.

As anyone who’s followed this blog knows by now, I’m working to rebuild my life pretty much from the ground up.  I got the results of the DSM last night, and I’m now officially being treated for anxiety and depression, exactly as I assumed the diagnosis would confirm, made worse by the sensory processing issues I deal with.  As it was explained to me, there is no cure (again, no surprise), and the idea behind the treatment going forward is to address the triggers and create coping mechanisms that will mitigate the responses.  As it turns out, which is also no surprise, a large part of my problem is social anxiety.  I don’t deal with people very well, especially en masse.  And yet… I have this blog, and while the reading numbers don’t reflect it, I have more than enough followers to freak me out if I ever gave it any real thought.  It was much the same back in my podcasting days too.  It’s easier to talk to a screen or a microphone until I realize people are part of the equation.  None of you people are “real” until after I hit the publish button and you speak up.  That probably sounds a bit harsh, but if you think about it, that’s part of the disconnect we all experience when dealing with social media.  Some platforms are faster and more immediate than others by design, and I don’t deal with those.

Back on point.  I’m told I should keep a journal to document my insights and setbacks and such.  I used to keep a journal back in the day, but I’ve not done that in a long time.  It had its advantages, certainly, but I get more out of blogging.  I can fool myself, just as anyone can.  It’s better if I have an audience holding me accountable through honest interaction, and the possibility is there that I might get some feedback that perhaps wouldn’t otherwise be considered.  I try to be as open as possible to new ideas.  There’s also the suggestion that some of you might likewise benefit from the things I learn along the way, be they positive or negative.  One of my readers, for example, commented that she wanted me to blog about what my efforts in creating a budget, changing my habits, and digging out of debt.  This is certainly one aspect of all I’m intending to accomplish on my quest to reformat my life.

You see where I’m going with this, I think.  I’ve told a handful of people so far that this feels like a new beginning for me, and the only way it will actually be so is if I stay the course and follow through.  It’ll certainly help me to record my efforts and the resources I use as I proverbially upgrade my life to a completely new operating system.  If I’m authentic with you, I’m authentic with me.  Not that I haven’t been authentic with you thus far, but keep in mind that authenticity is one of those proverbial double-edged swords.  Long time readers already know I’m terrible about pulling in the reins and being concise.  Blogging knows no limits other than the time it takes to type, and thus the time it takes to read.  At the same time, I don’t want to bore anyone or bog you down with more crap you don’t want to read.  Let’s face it, this blog is already a random bag of cats.  This just adds a monkey or two, but they do make quite the mess.  Personally, my money’s on the cats.

And so… I’d like your feedback here.  If I do this, I’m potentially going to do it as a full fledged “project” blog so I can go back and reference it easier as needed instead of trying to find it in the general blog roll.  You’d see it regardless, obviously.  Is this something you would want in your feed?  Would you find it valuable on any level?  If so, is there anything in particular you would find helpful or meaningful that I should address along the way?  Regardless of whether you’re interested or not, let me know what you think.  Thanks in advance.

14 thoughts on “Feedback, Please

  1. You know what I think about the budgeting and getting finances together. You mentioned minimalism in the other post and I’d be interested in knowing the steps or process for that, since that is something I’m trying to accomplish myself.
    I personally love seeing other people’s systems for accomplishing things. It gives me inspiration and I can add, or slightly alter them so they work for me.

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  2. I’d say do it! You’re already very good at keeping up other blog projects so this might actually be an easy way of tracking what’s going on in your world…and it might be more fun to have that feedback from us readers.
    The downside, I guess, could be that despite all efforts to write an “as is” account of what is happening, a blog is never going to be as much of a confidante as a private journal. The very act of writing the blog is different from a journal, or at least has the very potential of being different, by the fact that it is easy to edit, it has an audience, it is typeset, etc. …. (I’m sure I have read too much McLuhan in my university days…) … so it depends on what you want to get out of the journalling exercise.
    Saying that, if I know anyone who has the discipline to follow through with this, it is you, Troy.

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    • I appreciate the vote of confidence. Don’t get me wrong, there are certainly things I’ll never discuss on the blog. That’d just be counterproductive and probably more than a bit stupid. But there’s something to be said for finding those who are willing to be supportive and maybe who likewise need that support. Never hurts to ask. Things will develop as they go, and if anything’s going to go down the road not traveled, it’ll be this.

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  3. To put it bluntly – it’s YOUR blog. You can write what the hell you want. If people don’t like it, they don’t have to read it or they can skip reading a particular topic. I don’t read everything you write – the movie stuff goes straight over my head since I haven’t seen any of them and don’t particularly watch movies.

    I think you should write your personal trials and tribulations if you don’t mind sharing and think it would help.

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    • Sure, that’s never been a question. I just like to pick the brains of my audience on things from time to time. In this case, I do think it has merit, provided I offer the right balance. Sounds like you’re in consensus with everyone else who’s commented. Thanks.


  4. the best kind of journal to keep for therapeutic purposes is a freewriting one. Freewriting is simply putting pen to paper and writing without stopping for a fixed number of pages or words, or a set amount of time. It is a well-established and researched technique (Pennebaker also published several papers on it), used in schools and universities and therapeutic writing classes worldwide. Don’t worry about spelling or grammar, don’t even stop to think about what to write next and write one, two or three pages or for 15, 30 or 45 minutes. If you can’t think of anything just write ‘I don’t know what to write’ until a thought comes. A variant on the ‘unfocussed freewriting’ technique I’ve just described is ‘focussed freewriting’. Here, instead of writing without stopping about any topic that comes into your head, you decide to freewrite on a particular topic and to keep returning to it. It helps if there is one particular thing that’s worrying you, or to help decide what you want to do when you’re having difficulty with making a decision. Society stereotypes men as animal like, without emotional insight, communication skills or empathy. In that environment, is it any wonder men are reluctant to speak out about their feelings and experiences in public, or event to those closest to them. Particularly given the media reinforce this stereotyping of men by reproducing and validating the misandrist view that men have few or no issues worthy of regular publication…

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