I want to offer my heartfelt gratitude to all of you who read and follow this site. The last few weeks have been a time of trial and upheaval. It’s been a confrontation against those things that hold me back and/or no longer serve to push me forward. It’s been a confrontation against my fear and anxiety, against my anger and prejudice. It’s been a quest for my identity, both mortal and spiritual. This fight has been raging inside me for a most of my life to the point where I could no longer contain it. Today I feel like the final battle is finally won. I’ve at long last come to terms with my transgender identity and all that implies. My spiritual path… still a work in progress, but who among us can say otherwise? Even the saints and mystics the world over struggled to achieve and to maintain their piety. I certainly don’t consider myself on that level. I’m happy merely to say I have friends in all walks of life who believe in a variety of beautiful ideas. I’ll pull inspiration from all of those ideas as I can, just as I always have.
Let me dwell on that idea for a moment. “I’m happy…” That in itself is a blessing of such magnitude. Finally free of fear, of anger, of sadness. To embrace hope.
I could not have gotten this far without my friends on my side of the screen, and I could not do it without my friends in the blogosphere. If you’re reading this right now, I’m talking about YOU. You’re awesome. I’ve received some amazing levels of support. It’s been… life affirming.
If anyone has had any criticism, they’ve held silent on this front. That must be difficult. I don’t want anyone to feel like I’ve bullied them into silence. If anyone understands what that’s like, it’s me, so I’d be horrified if anyone thought I was doing that in return. I want my site to be a safe haven for the constructive perpetuation of ideas, the freedom of speech, if you will. We are all equals here. I value well-considered opinions whether or not I may agree with them. Likewise, I welcome honest questions from those who seek honest answers. I spent a lifetime with questions that no one could answer simply because I was too hesitant to ask.
Also, I’ve gained a few more followers to this site. I have no idea if this is the ride you thought you were signing up for, but welcome all the same.
That’s enough babbling for this post. Again, thank you all so much for your kindness and encouragement. I specifically want to thank my Christian friends who continue to prove to me that my past experiences are not indicative of the whole. You’re a credit to your faith.